Feliz Navidad!!

just stopping in for a brief moment to say Feliz Navidad to all those who i love so much.

christmas was amazing here, so beautiful and memorable. only cried for a brief 10 minutes after talking to my mom on christmas morning, but after that i pulled my shit together, and literally just danced. our arbo house woke up christmas morning, ate some delicious chocolate chip pancakes prepared by theresa and myself, headed to mass, and then had a solid 3 hour dance party singing and laughing, mainly to reggaeton, which may be in the running for my new choice music--it was insanity, but so much fun. we did our "secret santa" on a $1 budget, and were in hysterics at the creativity that arose through that restraint. let{s just so that there were a lot of "coupon" gifts, and regifts from things our parents and friends sent us, too funny. but in all seriousness, this christmas i felt so much love and joy. i had a constant smile on my face for most of the time, and this year christmas really did have a magical feel. no fighting, no obligations, no resentment. a lot of sitting around and talking and laughing. we have been laughing for about four days straight now.

one christmas tradition that we did partake in here that i absolutely loved, were the christmas posadas. it{s hard to explain the exact feeling/environment of a posada, but the gist is basically a reinactment of mary and joseph going from house to house looking for a place to say--there{s a lot of music and discussion about faith and love, and what the holidays are all about. they happen for 9 days straight, and our house went to about 4 of them. especially with the power out, and doing most of them by candle light, i was so moved. i{m sure if you wikepedia posada, you{ll get a little bit better description of what they are, but for now, just know that this tradition was something that made my christmas all that more special. i just felt so connected---through faith, and through the basic fact that we are all human, and here to love one another. it was really powerful.

so now i{m off for a week, and dan, karla, steve, john, and i have decided to head to cuenca for a little "vacation" fun. we leave tomorrow morning, and it should be great. we{re all just ready to take a break from Duran, and breathe for a bit. work has become a little mundane, and the screaming at semillas has started to make me a little sorda. so we leave tomorrow morning for a few days of reprieve.

before christmas came, we were also so blessed to have karlas mom and sister come visit us for a few days, which was awesome. just having family in the house really brought a new cheer and light, and great food too! getting to share in this experience with people back home is so profound. its one thing to describe and write and talk, but to really be here, and see and hear and feel what Duran is like brings on a whole new sentiment.

alright, well that{s about all i have time for today. thank you to everyone who sent me christmas wishes, it was just so sweet and really made my heart smile knowing that i{m not forgotten about back at home. and it{s already almost 5 months--incredible, seriously. this time is flying.

when i get home from cuenca, i promise to write a more detailed post, and give you a better update on the happenings down here. for now, just know that i{m happy, like really happy---and laughing a lot. sometimes my stomach hurts from laughing so much after sitting down with these four crazy people i live with. they are ridiculous, but i love them.

until next time, or next year i guess i could say!
sending you so much love it hurts,
love,
jamie

oh, and wikepedia grillos while you{re at it, that{s an episode i didn{t even get into, but if you can imagine the biblical times of locust, you may have accurately imagined what it{s been like in grillo season. ha, yeah so not fun.

´tis the season!

well---here we are, middle of diciembre---still can´t believe it! sorry for the lapse in time between entries. ya know, when i used to follow past volunteers blogs, i would get so frustrated when they wouldn´t post for months, but now that i´m here, i can finally see why it´s so hard to blog frequently. there is just no time!---always something to do (practice spanish, visit neighbors, read a good book, hang with my housemates, prepare HIV charlas, cook dinner, work out, write letters) but i promise i will try to be more intentional about sharing funny moments and new ideas with you!

so to start off, i wanted to tell you all that for the past few weeks i´ve been singing with our church group Nueva Generación. well now that you´re all laughing, let me explain. our music at church is awesome, and for me music is a huge part of why i feel so much at mass. well....i´m in ecuador, trying to deepen my faith and grow in spirituality, so i figured why not knock myself out and join the group! ha---keep in mind i can barely speak spanish, so singing in spanish could quite possibly be one of the funniest things---especially since i hold a microphone. yes. i hold a microphone. AND, you can´t put on the whole "apples and oranges" front on when you don´t know the words--that just doesn´t vale here, and i haven´t learned the spanish cover up for not knowing words. so because you can´t be here to listen to me sing, let me try and describe what this experience is like---this past weekend we sang campanas de belen (bells of bethlehem i think)--and this was me "BELEN, CAMPANAS DE BELEN, y los angeles baaAAbumm nuestro los baa bummm" yupp...that´s me, just hummin´along, trying to come up with words that i have no idea what should be. but i figure, what the hell--i like to sing, i like church music, and i like being a part of a group with people my own age. oh yeah that´s right, new gen (as i call it) is all people our age, and they´re awesome! such great people. therefore, why not? why not make a fool of myself? i´ve really got nothing to lose :-)

another tidbit i wanted to tell you about was that we had our employee christmas party last night--and let me just tell you---it was a BALL! wow, i think everyone had a really good time. we invited all of our guards and their families, and the people who help run our afterschool programs with us---it was just so special to be able to spend time with them. we are so close with our guards because well, they are with us literally 24-7, so meeting their families, and dancing and singing with them, was just awesome.

so here´s how things went down. karla and amy headed up the food committee- we ate pasta, mango, rice, and pineapple--how´s that for a ecua-american meal, it was delicious though!---decorations were cute, a little tacky, but cute nonetheless, and the entertainment, well that was definitely the highlight. all three of our houses decided that we would put on "dances" for our guests--you can imagine the competative spirit that arrose with that notion--they were absolutely hilarious, i was laughing like a little kid! a little synopsis includes john as a donkey, dan and tom as reindeer, and casa tomás reinventing an ecua christmas song with rostro lyrics! they were all really creative and fun! i think megan our director may have posted a video of them on facebook, so if you can access that--you may get a good laugh!

all in all though, last night was just a great holiday moment, it felt like that was christmas day for us---dancing, laughing, eating, sharing---so beautiful. the little kids were so cute--elvis´s son, one of our semillas kids as well, asked me as we were passing around chocolate, "lupita, how many can i have?", and i told him, "as many as you want", and his face just lit up! and he was like "i´m gonna put a few in my pocket to take home for later", i was like "absolutely!"--my heart melted....

let´s see, what else, what else----oh funny moment with chiquititos at semillas! ha, i have to tell you---so i was doing the vowels with them the other day, they love it---they scream out "A, E, I, O, U, cuantás vacas tienes tu"---so after we moved on from that, we do--MA, ME, MI, MO, MU, and so on with all the letters---well we learning new words for MA, ME, etc---so i was going okay, can anyone tell me a word that begins with MA---and then they would yell, mariposa, mapa, mano, mango, manzana---yadda yadda, well i asked jhon piel--one of the cutest little kids, probs one of my favs even though i shouldn´t have one----if he could think of a word...so he gets into pensive mood for a few seconds and then shouts out "PAPAYA!!!!"---when i tell you i was laughing so hard i was crying, it was one of those adorable children moments, that you just can´t replicate...and it gets better..... everytime i asked him for a response, for ME, for MI, etc, he would continue to yell out PAPAYA!!! needless to say, i got my quota of belly laughs that day. it was just like, umm jhon piel, papaya begins with PA, we´re workin on MA now. and he´d be like ooooooh okay....repeat papaya.....think again....repeat papaya. too much.

semillas has just been so great though. seriously. it´s a blast. it doesn´t stress me out anymore, and it doesn´t make me cringe---it´s just a part of my day, and a fun part of my day for that matter. i think i´m learning how cool kids really are. they are funny and full of personality. and as bad and nasty as they can be sometimes, most days i leave there laughing at funny moments. christmas is going to be hard though. i´m already feeling strange about it. as rostro volunteers we´re not allowed to "gift give", and that´s a really hard thing for me. i want to give these kids new shoes, and pencils, and backpacks, and hair bands, and new markers, and we´re just not allowed to do that. i know christmas is NOT about gifts, i mean i fully understand that, but that doesn´t change the fact that i want to give these kids everything i possibly can. it´s something i´m definitely struggling with. hopefully though we´ll be able to have a christmas party for them and do games with prizes and sweets---a little something to spread holiday cheer. and prizes don´t fall under the gift giving category so that´s a good thing!

i´m trying to think if there´s anything else i wanted to share with you guys today, there probably is but i just can´t think anymore right now. it´s so hard to keep track when everyday is filled with so many moments that i wish i could tell you immediately after they happen. i just want to pick up the phone and be like, i´ve got the funniest story for you---i always have to make mental notes and be like, oh this is definitely "write home worthy"....but a lot of the details inevitably get left out!

the gist of this blog is that: things are positive here. really good for that matter. as anxious as i was about experiencing christmas here without my family, i think that after all--it´s going to be a really moving experience. something i will always have. as difficult as it may be.

and on that note, i´ve got to get out of this sauna-esque cyber---i know i say it all the time, but seriously, you are always in my thoughts...always!! you may think i´m too busy to think about you, but it´s not true, on my bus rides, during semillas activities, thoughts of people from home always cross my mind. i´m thinking "hmmm i wonder what katie´s up to right now in DC? she´s probably on a run, or i bet Jen is at the clinic giving flu shots---or it´s sunday, i bet my parents are out having breakfast at some new local"----it´s constant, really. i miss you. punto. i miss you all so much, and not being with you during the holiday season is hard for me, hard, but not impossible. distance is nothing. we´re still connected.

alright, i´ve gotta run, LOVE LOVE LOVE YOUU!! always,
keep smiling :-)
jamie